First, you are not stupid! The scammers are good at what they do. Look around . . . there are thousands of other people here who have been in the same place that you are in now and we have all made it . . . you can too!
Please read this post
viewtopic.php?f=23&t=3003and contact the people listed there. You can even ask to have your information directed to Bill White, and tell him that Shawn from ScamVictimsUnited.com directed you there. He may be able to assist you in getting in contact with the right people to help you.